Divine grace lost.

Every time I talk to that guy, I get this feeling of incredible emptiness inside. Every single object in the room begins to look as if it has no substance to it. Everything appears hollow. Exactly why this should be, I could never explain to you with any precision. Because of this feeling, I end up saying and doing things that are simply not me. And I feel terrible about it afterwards. If I could manage to never see him again, nothing would make me happier.