Letting the bass fucking drop at 8am in the morning.

One of my favourite mixes to date

C'est la vie.

This is so fucking complicated.

You said you'd never leave and that you'd always be here. What happened to "I love you and I'll always be right by your side when you need me most." 

I have no one I can confide in because you were the only one who understood me most. There's no one I can trust to handle me at my worst; you dealt with me in the best ways possible to keep me grounded.

I hate you for leaving this world with nothing more than a text message. I cannot believe you left everything and everyone you loved without any second warnings.

I've kept my thoughts in isolation and secluded myself from being too open or personal with everyone I come across. I've distanced myself from the world because I'm struggling to trust in anyone. You knew you were the biggest part of me and my life, you knew how damn important you were to me. You swore it yourself, it was all the same. Then you took everything away and cut all ties without any regards on the impact of the lives around you.

Did I fuck myself over for letting myself getting to know you?

Truth is, I'll never be able to hate you. But as I let my thoughts consume every inch of happiness left in me, I'm becoming incredibly bitter as a person. Flashbacks of the past haunt me on a daily basis as I let everything lose control. I needed you, I'll always need you. But as the days go by, I'm left here to endure it all alone.

Falling deeply.

I don't know what to do because I don't know how I feel.

And I'm kissing you

You gave me your word and said you loved me and that you'd never let me go
so I said, if we find that the world ends tomorrow
I would be content knowing that your lips were the last
that I touched with my own.

It was wonderful.

You took away my motivation, left me in isolation.

Despite how shit it makes me feel..

Thank you for sharing part of your world with me. Now whenever I get lonely, I'm able to feel reconnected with you once again.

I just can't do it. I can't bring myself to be anywhere near places affiliated with you.