I'm fighting so hard to hold onto every glimpse of you. I'm afraid of letting myself forget you and replace you. You were truly and undeniably all that kept me together. I don't know what I have left to maintain clarity in life anymore. I feel more lost than usual lately and I'm finding myself chase any fabrication reality proposed that is in anyway, remotely related to you.
I don't want to let myself allow to be put through this mental torture again. But I can't fight it. I am so desperate to feel anything that reminds me of you.
