The last of you

Saying goodbye to the last few pieces that I wished I wouldn't ever have to part with. But don't you worry, I will never forget.

I'm losing sight of all that I have dreamed of. Day by day, every little bit of effort I have diminishes, hope fades, and I feel myself sinking deeper and deeper into agonising pain.

I don't know what to do anymore. I need your help but you won't give me what I need to get through this. I wish I could tell you everything that's been on my mind. But I'm afraid of what you'll say or how you'll act. Every time I've tried to open myself up to you, you tell me there's no reason for it or I'm acting like a child. I can't explain what I'm feeling to you. I can't even understand it myself. All I know is that it's been here for a long time now and I cannot find a way to get myself out of this hell. 

Maybe it's just the chemistry in my brain that's all messed up. Maybe it's something else. I'm beginning to think that there's no way of fixing this anymore.  

With nothing left to keep me grounded, I just want to shut the world out. I want to shut everything out. I want to get away.

now i have to live without you

I woke up one day finding nothing, no one next to me. I was devoid of emotion, I was lost, I was confused. I hated the everything, I hated anything remotely related to you because every thing that I came across would bring me to the darkest of places.
You were the best person I knew. You hold a very special place in my heart. I will always regard our friendship as one of the most special things I'll ever know; it is something I will always hold ever so dearly forever in my life. Whenever I think of you and all the times we have shared, it never fails to bring a smile to my face. That is something that will never change. Thank you for shaping me into the person I am.

i'm trying to hide it, but i just want you to know that wherever you are, i miss you.

I think I need to get away from you.