For the first time in months, i find myself defeated; wallowing in self pity, drowning in hysterical puddle of tears.
There's no one to blame really. I did this to myself. But if only now if I could find a way out, or if someone could lend me a hand out of this pit and help me mend my broken self.. or even somewhat restore minimally what was there before..

RFLCT

I have the tendency to worry about the little things in life, things that are beyond my control.
I can't help it though, I've let you permeate through this membrane I've manufactured out of the negativity of encountered misfortunes to protect myself from doubt and despair. And you've done it; you've torn me inside out, you've worn me out. I cannot believe how stupid I was to ever let you in my life. Don't get me wrong, I don't regret any of it. But you have stolen the most integral cog to my network. Without it, I just simply cannot function properly. And what sucks most is I know that I will never get it back.

2.0

It's been a long journey and we've been stuck in the same place for a while now. It is now time for us to part ways, depart this heart-wrenched nightmare of misery and move on.

I'm sad. It hurts. But I don't want to be miserable anymore.

moving on

It's one tragedy to say that you will never love me like you use to, it's an even greater tragedy to know that you will never love me any better than you do now.