You threw it away.

What could have been everlasting might have been a formula for destruction. What might have seemed hopeful, something ready to blossom, could have possibly been the worst thing to have happened to us, given that we saw everything through.
Don't get me wrong, that's not me saying that I wouldn't have given it a go. But not only were you my best friend, you were something special.
When we looked at each other, that's when we both knew. It was something, it was something amazing.
No feeling in this world, no emotion, no words will ever live up to what you've given me. You've opened up my eyes to a whole new world. But that plane came crashing down a long time ago and no matter how hard I try, there will never be a way of going back.

Sometimes i cannot even.. UGH.

I've lost all that is important to me and you do not even have a single clue as to all that goes through my mind each and every day.

So yes, of course I am a train wreck. But thank you for slapping that label onto me and bitching to your friends about it. Thanks for your support.

optimist (i will try)

here's to you and what you have given me
a new life
a better understanding
a purpose to drive myself
through hardships
loneliness
whatever it may be

although i cannot see you anymore
what i do
i allow it to speak within me
even if i have to go through the depths of hell
sitting here
waiting in silence
missing you

i hope to share with you
this little piece of my life
just hang in tight
i'll see you soon
but
until we meet again, my friend
know that i really did
love you.

(with all of my heart)

Give me something to believe in again.

Now I finally see

I've wasted many nights crying for you, crying for something you can never give me.

Why am I still fighting to hold onto this?